I’ve been a graphic designer for ten years. I started a business from nothing. I taught myself skills I’d never thought possible. I made connections that floored me. I laughed and cried. I felt on top of the world and on the bottom of the sea. My little graphic design business has seen me through seven years of infertility and 18 months of being a first time mom.
When I had my second child I planned on letting it go, but just nine days later my husband passed away and I clung to it for the income and security. I didn’t want to be a working mother of two but I got used to it and it become a habit.
When my life changed drastically again, I didn’t even think to quit. For over a year I blindly kept working while being a mother of two, step-mother to three and a newlywed. It was exhausting and extremely stressful.
This Easter Sunday I choose to let it all go.
I took that week off from working and it was different. It felt different. It felt more joyful. I was happier, my husband was happier, even my kids where happier. I realized I didn’t have to keep working and that I didn’t want to. I still loved the work but my business’s job was done. With many prayers and the support of my new lover I choose to say goodbye.
I decided to fully embrace and enjoy being a full time fully invested mother, wife and homemaker. I let go of the online noise and embraced the real noise of my life. The noise that often sounds like laughter and happy memories. I choose to listen to my heart and what I really wanted and so far it’s been one of the best decisions ever!